these few days my mind hadn't been onn the right track.
seems like trap in my own world cuz of some family prob .
but am so glad that dear is always by my side , supportng me.(:
love him so much..
had to wake up so early this morn t go do proj at rp.
so discuss some points and chtted alot w leonard jx and scott.
thn cab t vivo t look for eugene and andrew.
happy t see them though .
hahahas.
nonsense alot alot ah. then shawn came also.
hahaha...
thn went raffles place t meet baby.
so happy t see him . and happy thing is his released early today.
earlier thn i expected. hahahahas
thn had dinner at westcoast.
and dear send me homee.
(((((:
cant wait for 101110.
ham ham! :D awaiting ~
hees.

today dear dear meet me at 7plus and we wantd t go tiong t have breakfast..
but changed mymind. decided not t go formorn class, cuz scott nvr go. and
cuz i'm not well :(
thn realised only leonard went. jx also nvr go. Lol.
so dear and i went jp for toast egg and milo :D
thn pei pei dear dear go funan.
ages since i last went there... lots of memories . andd many flashbacks when i stepped in .
don't really like the feeling.. cuz i'm missing them so badly .
work colleagues im refering to.
hm.. thn had drinks at mac while waiting for dear2.
(:
thn ard 12 dear pei me go take train and i went back school, t look for jx and leonard.
scott came ard 1plus.
printed notes and went up class.
i was dozing off during the lecture.. plus it's freaking cold in there.
i was like shivering :(
and there's quiz tmr , sad.
gt confidence though. cuz it's eng tmr. hehe
scared 22 out of 30 for the qs quiz, not really good.
but it's definitely more than 80% . so dear, u owe me one outng .
haha as u promised .
hee.
prawning this fri~~
yay yay yay yay~
I did enjoyed myself alil at sch today but nt that much maybe cuz of body temp..
well, i seriously can't wait for the batam trip 2weeks later!!
CUZ DEAR IS ALSO JOINING US(:
hees, i gotta prepare clothes and stuffs soon..
hopefully his leave is approved.
thn it'll be my first trip w dear2. ^^
and i'm like running a high fever now .:(
want t turn in already , like can't take it anymre :(
anw, will be gg down sas t collect my cert tmr .
for cbs. hahahas.
thn will be waitingg for dear2 to knock off . (:
tiring day tmr , i guess............
bye~

boring sat .
but love the end . hehehes
went out ard 9 to meet dear at causeway for movie..
watched paranormal activity2.
sucks okay. don't watch.. super stupid .
then had mac w dear .
cinnamon melts is nice~~
had this talk w dear2.. felt so much better. (:
really love him...............................
^^
thn dear dear sent me home.
love the sweet moment spent w him(:
v satisfied.
and dear, i still feel so bad tht i overslept today :x

go meet dear at jp t have his hair cut .
thn saw dear's mummy. she's so funny lo :x but nice!
thn we had lunch at billy bombers.
v enjoyable!
after tht we went dhoby.
wanted t go collect my cert, but just cant get in ):
sad la.
thn pei dear go ps look for his friend(:
thn walk t orchard. had our v first pool session . dear damn pro la!
anw, went his house after pool.
feel so sick le. that i slept throughout the journey t his house.
:x
hehe
and his doggie is super cute lo.
just like his gf :P
hehehehs
im growing stronger, day by day.

there's many times i feel as if my heart had died .
i guess its due to the stress lately ..
i don't know.
projs not done, dont even have the mood to do anything .
but well, i really enjoyed myself today!
after school , i went home t really rest and went t meet ting2
studied tgt... and had dinner .
then darling came t meet me awhile(:
it just feels good t see him, always .
was really unwell, but i still press on .. hopefully one day i can fully recover....
before 9, scott called .
accompany him t dear's shop and get a iphone cover .
and t eat.....
im still holding on .
after scott and alan left, i went t look for singwei .
chatted awhile w him and realised im really bad t have done those .
my mind is in a mess now . reallyyyyyy.
anw, so happy t go back tgt w darling .
just hoping tht tmr will be a success. (:
MEANS i will be able t go prawning w dear...

nvr feel this way before, but i really feel so blessed !
Ytd , met up w sh . and went woodlands t study .
managed t really study afew topics for today's test .
thn , had a really fun time w dear in the cold storage. lol
he's always so nonsense!
anw today woke up late and quickly rush t prepare t go school.
thought im latee but actually its 930 for the test :s
met deardear at je and he send me t school.
met scott and walk t school tgt .
the test is easy........ except for one question tht really stump me .
haha cuz i didn't study tht topic :x
anw, im home now . plan t study a little and go causeway meet tingting t study again..
thn meet mh for dinner and wait for that fat ass t knck off frm work :P
hehe.
i miss that fat ass dear ! :P
prawning tmr YAY!

ovrslept and missed the first lesson today .
couldn't get to sleep until 7am ):
ok then when i woke up at 8, quickly call dear and went to prepare .
but decided not t go for the first lesson so asked scott t help me mark my attendance
as if i came . Lol.
thn dear cab over t my place and we went for breakfast tgt
it really feels v good seeing him!
cuz im able to see his annoying face :P
hahahaaa.
accompanied tht fat ass to work and i went over t meet jx and leonard when scott
went t get lunch .
had this meetup in the canteen and they really suanned me.. tsk.
lol.
after lunch , touched up on the proj and went for es lesson.
enjoyed it again !
passed the quiz, but felt that i've not done well enough ):
i could have done better , i know i can .
nvm, was released early today ard 415.
went t meet mh at je and train t jp .
had mos and told her about some things . haha(:
we went ard and look for some skirts but nothing t my liking ):
i really got t sleep early. didn't have a good rest for alrdy 3 days ):
keep thinking about the batam trip w dear !
i miss him ):

feeling so relaxed .
dear and i woke up ard 1040 this morn,
prepared and acc him cab t work. dear was so sweet last night .
he came home after work and bought cakes for me (:
i just reached home about an hour ago i thnk.
got to really study hard...
i wanna do well. and i must !
i truly believe i can succeed.....
tmr's double lesson , sian ttm .
Have t wake up so early in the morn ):
but was glad since the second day till now, i did not missed a single lesson. ahahahaha.
from today onwards, im gonna spend everyday meaningfully .
time is like money to me.
and dear! i miss youuu~~~~~~~~~~~~

the day before ytd dear and i went marina bay link.
but before tht, he sent me t school(:
ytd was dear's off day.
we went out but i overslept :P
i went jp to look for him..
we had our lunch & dear accompany me to study tgt w mh((:
V ENJOYABLE !
then meihui left and we went t catch a movie..
:D
then bought his stuffs and he came for a sleepover:D
we had our dinner at my place then mh and kj came and look for us.
had some drinks and went for a walk(:
thn after they left dear & i went homee
couldn't wake up early t prepare breakfast for him ..
but still left house tgt w him.
met scott , jx and leonard for the proj.
they're like skiving now...................................................
and im so tired.
got to sleep early tonight . w deardear:D

back from a long day at school.
seems like a long day but it's only 3 hours.
meet dear today and he acc me go have breakfast .
hha(:
send him to work cuz he send me t sch ytd :P
we had burger king and i went to school lol.
v late for school but scott was even later.
LOL.
joke.
after school had kfc w scott.
thn met meihui at jp.
had dinner , shopped, and chatted w her . haha
then homed.
having a really bad headache ):
got t sleep. goodnight !

tiredddd. & stress.
have no idea how t start doing.
whatever financial planning . argh.
anyways, i really got to start studying.
):
EXAMS COMING! STRESS):
oh, forget t mention that my 18th birthday was spent v meaningfully!
((:
received a veryvery big doraemon from dear!
:D AND a bracelet :D hee.
i realised i got alot to do!
and many things t get....
thats why i have to press on.
this month will be a very busy month .
got many targets t hit. heh.
i got to sleep alrdy but im missing some pig so much that
even im blogging im also w him on the phone . :P
miss you :((

okay, i realised i seldom blogg now .
but well, things have been fine lately(:
more than just fine infact..
been doing alot of reading and improving alot.
it's a good start, the first move to success!
AS PROMISED. HAHA
hmm.
i want to close my first deal soon.
and not about earning the money but it's about to improve.
and to get the momentum back.
sch is gonna start soon..
i can't wait but when it's time to cut down on workng, i realised i will really miss it ):
for certain reasons i just want to keep it to myself.
currently at causeway, its very enjoyable(:
how should i say?
its like having the drive to work and to excel.
i never and dont ever have this feeling before.
it feels more than just good(:
just finished w the eng test at psb last week.. then went down to IT show at suntec.
well, main motive is to drop by to visit sky .
he asked me down tho.
and partly is to look at phones.(:
gonna change one soon.
might be changing to blackberry, i guess.
well, i got to really apply what i learn from that book.
its a really good knwledge book.
and the techniques of how to influence ppl and how t win friends over.
ivenever been this motivated before, only after being advised and brainwashed by an adviser(:
he is always there.
and yes, recently ive been really into something.
haahaaa.
this got to be kept as a secret. but that really feels good.
it reallydoes.
(:
enjoying life to the fullest.
time is money to me.

maybe after i leave everything will be okay?
should i leave or not?
what am i to do?
i should rmb what bro say.
" to learn something is a way of being stronger each day"
hais.
i really miss those little ones.
feel like seeing them again. got a feeling they will be someone else's soon ):
if they are, please take good care of them tgt w him .
):

busy with work and some stuffs these few days.
lazy to update anything.......
gonna start school soon.................................................





















was busy with work these few dayssssss.
lazy to update and school's gonna start soon.
:))
i want to go back to school
but it's like............... gonna be in a new environment.
hopefully i can adapt.
hm..
i got to change my mentality.
dont like the way i'm thinking now.
and im going to do something about it .

2years have past,
its still the same..
i got nothing to say le(:
so tiring and worn out.
byes

some ppl is getting on my nerves.
all you know is to complain isit?
how old alrdy? behave like some 10yr old.
thank god i don't have to work with you anymore.
anw ytd was really bored at work.
shihui came to find me after her work. he came too(:
was really busy when they came.
cuz i always do things last min :X
thanks for sending me home agaain ytd.
(:
morning was woken up by some... ppl..
couldn't get back to sleep after that ):
decided to stay home today(:
to rest....... cuz there's work tmr.
i can't wait for next week seriously.
get to work there.
with bro(:

boringboring.
but can't wait cuz i ll be going out tmr(:
yays.
i've been sleepng the whle day and juz keep sleeping.
no appetite tho i'm hungry.
think i'm gonna fall sick soon.
):
i can't wait to start work .
for some reasons(:
please don't probe.
i'm so happy for some ppl(:
dontknow how should i put it .
but juz happy when my friends are happy^^
i really need to save up..........
got lots to buy.

YAY one more month to school reopen.
means i can still play :x
hahahas. maybe i can go and get a job first.
(:
ytd watched eclipse w yikai(:
niceeeeeeeeee.
but dont like the ending.
and some scenes.
well, enjoyed th day tho ^^
thn today got a morning call from him and went lot1 to meet him for breakfast.
wanted t go have mac, end up we had kfc.
lol. i was so sleepy can.
thn sh came t meet us after her haircut.
walked ard, and sh went to meet noel and we went cp.
heart to heart talk w him at delifrance.
i was telling him about all my past and he was telling me his.
past as in what we are like in the past and not some other things.
(:
thn after that things somehw turned out v ugly.
lucky he stopped me, otherwise, the situation will be quite an unpleasant sight :x
i was too worked up.
:x
homed after he went t work.
i feel so calm now.
and i really like this feeling so muchhhhhh.(:

went to je to wait for him today.
we went to have some macaroni soup for lunch(:thn bused to town.
wanted to look for ea and noel.
end up only ea came to meet us):
thn we went far east..
had dinner and thanks again for sending me home(:
yay! eclipse tmr ^^
with yikai(:
waited so long for that movie le (:
yes i know i should be contented w what i have..
and be thankful.
i know i should.
and to you. please forget me.
i know you wont be reading this.
i owe you this life okay.
repay you next life.
nothing will chnge the fact, juz hope tht time will slowly tell everything.
hope tht you're doing fine.
(:

jp with ea(:
accompanied her t buy her mum's present at charles and keith.
saw a bag i like^^
had lunch w her thn he came to meet me(:
thn ea left ):
acc him to go have hairr cut ^^
hahahas.and to have his dinner...
thn we bus home tgt (:
i'm feeling so hungry now ):
really hungry )):

happy for you. (:
i say it like i mean it.
(: hope you're always that happy.
anw, today was great.
i went out ard 6plus to orchard..
to meet him first (:
thn we had seoul garden. my very first time eating there x:
hahahas
we ate till ard 11 :x
so sad that shihui and noel didn't join us ):
we spam the food there like crazy. was so bloated.
at the same time, worried for ea and couldn't eat much.
thn bused home(: thanks for sending me home.
and the lens. (: hahahas.
i wanna do my hair soon((:
heehees.
can't wait to watch eclipse ^^
i'm feeling so happy today~

): holland lost):
sad.
stayed up to watch the match ytd.
not enough sleep.
i'm like so sleepy.
having holidays is so boring. kind of miss school.
(:
anws, i think tmr will be great.
supposed t be watching eclipse tmr, but forgot about something on at night..
^^
will be waiting for ea to knock off tmr after wrk.
tgt with him and noel(:
the plan must be well planned otherwise hor.
like ytd :x
hahhaas.
and to you. i'm sorry altho idk why am i apologising for.
sorry and thanks for the 3weeks of happy moments you gave me.
(: at that time, i'm happy with you. and
at that 3weeks you must have suffered alot right.
thats why the apology.
well, you're still my friend(:
i doubt you will be reading this cuz you don't even have my blog web.
but i'm really happy for you. cuz if i can't love you, let someone else love you k.
i'm sorry i let the ones ard you thought and had a bad impression of yyou.
it's me. i'm the one tht let you down. sorry......................
anw it's over(: enjoy your life.
i'm sleepy.
i think i'm going back to sleep.
tmr will be a long day.
night out(:

i can't remember anything that happened in the past.
sadly,i really can't.
what i used to be in the past??????????????????????
\feel so much better after talking toyou(:
love that special feeling! THANKS FOR BEING THERE ALWAYS^^
right now, i juz need to find myself back.
i want to feel good about myself again .
can i?
editedddddddd (:

having a really bad tummyache ):
anw , today i cab to school cuz i didn't want t be late for th paper .
the mcq was okay.
but the open ended question.... was tough.
:/
plus im not done w my assignments ):
sighhhhhhhh
waited for somebody after his school ends.
(:
went somerset tgt to change a new iphone.
thanks for keeping me accompany (:
and for sending me home.
(:
i really feel like sleeping now ):

stats is over.
thank god.
(:
sth really funny happened during the test..
and the whole class juz burst out laughing.
lols. i seriously cant wait for fri.
for the exams to all be over.
i still have to worry for my principles of management.
sucks man.):
im going to sleep now
have to wake up at 9 tmr to revise.):

exams and assignments weeeeeeeeeeeek.
):
i WANNA MOVE ON.
need a job.
should i go back?
or not?(:
got to think about it.

life should be great.
have got no time to blog.
either im studying or i'm out.
sleeep sleep and sleep.
but 8plus went to meet shihui.
i juz reached home at 1am juz nw. damn tiring.
supposed t have a haircut w shihui but the salon's closed-.-
well we went to slack and while i waited for him to come.
we both went wcp. and ea went home ):

oh man. im like so deadd
not done with my assignments , yet.
still have to be in school tmr.
tho there isnt any lessons for this week.
(:
im much better now.
i will be(:

im lke at imm now with some ah siaos.
caannot really concentrate. veryvery distracting
i must really know my aims.
but i feel really lost now :/
i want to have more time with you.

im sick nowwwwwwwwwwwwwww.:(
having a high fever :(
but i still went sch today.
else i will be debarred from another paper zz.
english was fun today.
as usual la.
but i feel so sleepy that i could barely concentrate
had a talk with mr. jeffery after class. thank god he allows me to resit -.-
thn i go tp to meet yikai for lunch.
had bk :D
ohmyggggggggggggggggggggggg. im so sleepy.
sighhh.
i really missyou already .
:D
i wanna watch movieeeeessssssssssssssssssss.
with someone .
hee

i waited 6hours ............. zzz YES. SIX!
well, nevermind.
(:
its juz so last minute anw.
didnt go to sch today.
should hav went if i know i have to wait for soooooo long.
oomggggg.
but when i was about to leave, thn replied.
went up for awhile and thn went for dinner.
thn watch them played bball.
waited for shihui to come.
lol.
sometimes, i juz find that it's so not worth.
please, don't assume.
clarify if it matters, don't make an ass out of you and me.
and if it doesnt, stfu.
goodnight.
and really thanks to these ppl who have been by my side.
whethrr is it comforting me, entertaining me, chatting or advising me,
thanks!
ppl like , meihui, shihui, yi kai, wuhao, adrian, zeo and of cuz yu tat :p
appreciated.

what do i reallly want?pondering over it for so long.
i actually cried.
looked at myself and feels disgusted.
why and when did i changed so much.
please . someone, guide me back.
i feel so lost.
im not supposed t be like that.
i don't feel good now.
god, it feels awful ......................................
okay never mind. i lost............
i admit defeat.
enough , is enough.

i'm sick again.
:-(
having a high fever. sucks man.
only slept for 2 hours today.
slept at 6am , woke up at 8am for sch.
but fall asleep again and woke up ard 930.
prepared and dragged myself to sch ><
enjoyed the lesson taught by her always(:
thn went to meet xuefen, and lina.
had swensens.
thn meet meihui(:
ate at mos.
feel so sick today zz
like a walking corpse ><
:( should i go sch tmr?????????

didn't feel like going to school today.
so i went baby's house.(:
and it's like early in th morn when he's still sleeping :D
hahahas.
but in the end its me who fell asleeeeeeep :X
heehee.
afte that we went jp.
to have lunch and baby accompanied me till xuefen and ea came.
we went to window shop ard.
wa juz realised there are many things i wana get.
i also wanna watch toy story!
wooooooooooooooo..........................................
time is so limited now. got to study.
byes

disappointed.
i hope i won't be.(:
miss baby :(
but i think he missed me more than i missed him:)
ahhhhhhhhh i'm so sleepyy.
ytd was bad.
late for sch
11plus reach class ><
cuz went plaza sing to get a drink first.
but...................regretted going.
cuz i saw someeeee...............................
haha nvm(:
thn went home.
studied abit.
gonna meet shihui later.
(:
study session.

sch's boring.
totally no mood today.
sorry that i scare you guys :-(
left str after micro econs ended .
boring day man.
a day that i really need to be alone.
i miss you baby.
it's been 22months.
^^ love you.
and i really need to rest more.
keep falling asleep in lectures ><
nights all.
and , before i end this post,
i apologise if i hurt you in any way k.
i'm sorry.
it wasn't intentional.
:-(

woke up to meet meihui for breakfast.(:
first time dining at ah mei cafe.
tell you, the ice milk tea sucks.
but love the toast. :D
i really need to save up, cuz i got loads to buy.
^^
shopping madness.
got another cardigen from cotton on(:
thats all i bought today:(
thn we all decided to go jp!
i met baby to go tgt.(:
wanted to catch marmaduke tgt with meihui they all also.
but i scared tht i will fall asleep.
so..
we went shopping instead.
:D
thanks for the iphone casng babyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy:P
sorry made you spend so much ):
went home to sleeeeeeeeeep...
lucky im done w my report.
otherwise, dead.
-.-
i hope kirin's coming sch tmr........................................................................
life's boring...........

i got to start studying now.
got to prove her wrong.
and i need to change myyyyyyyyyyyy attitude.....
it sucks.
so stress lately.
many projects not done. in deep shit.
got to really mug now :-(

sucksssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss ttm.
no mood go sch today.
i toleratedddddddd okay. i said nothing.
send baby off to sch first. as in wait for bus(:
went vivo thn tanjong pagar.
broke down and cried..................seriously cannot take it.
i promise to go sch tmr. and i will.
don't know whats wrong with me today. sucks man.
went jp alone thn meihui came and meet me(:
baby toooooo(:
lols.
like so brokeeeeeee. hate the feeling.
used to buy whatever i like without considering.
pathetic la now><
and i miss kirin ):
pls get well soon k,so that we can continue those nonsense. hahah.
only she knows what i mean.
class is like damn boring now.
i seriously got to study now.
wanna get good grades, and tht will shut her up.
* i wanna fall in love with you like how i did, 2years back.
i love you.

i think something bad's gonna happen. always trusted my gut feeling.
m afraid ):
im supposed to be happy today. yea, supposed.
but apparently i'm not.
i need to find myself back soon.
i need to talk to someone..

can't help it but thought about ytd.
sweet's adorable :D
heees.
had dinner ytd at clark quey. drink alil.(:
thn went jp.............
collected the tics for shrek 3D.
enjoyed the movieeeeee.((:
and thanks for sending me home((:
woke up at 10plus when im supposed to be in sch at 1030.
nice one.
got prepared and went to school for micro econs.
reached there about 11plus.
when the class thought i ll onlyreach at 12.
they expected tht i ll be late :s
hahaha.
left ard 330 during business admin......
went imm to meet meihui.((:
heeeees.
at least my moood got better after seeing her, thanks girl(:
i really hope that you can stop whatever you're doing.
it's really irritating and really annoys me ttm.
i look okay doesnt means i am.
i don't speak a word doeesnt mean i don't care.
don't force me to make things ugly.
that would be the last thing i ever want to do.

i think i'm feeling sick again zz.
feverish ):
was out with ea today!
SORRY THAT I OVERSLEPT :X
hahs.
went bugis with her(:
nothing catches my eye at bugis street-.-
so ea and i went cotton on in junction(:
bought a top and a vest.(:
hahahas. see... cotton on siao again.
i think i spend about an hour in the whole shop but only manage t get 2items><
hais, have got to save up le. keeep spending these few days):
i got a lot of things to buy. money so limited):
hais. school again tmr.
i'm looking forward to it but not when i'm unwell):
missyouuuuuu.

if this doesn't change, i think one day i will go mad.
please... i have feelings too.
i don't enjoy being neglected in case you don't know.
never seen me that serious before?
now i am.
i need a break.
sometimes i feel that i'm going to break down anytime.
it's only whn i'm with a particular person thn i feel at ease.
really relax that kind.
i think you should know whho you are.
thanks for being sucha great friend(:

prince of persia's nice!
at least i didn't fall asleep :P
i jus enjoy hanging out with you................

i rmbed being very happy yesterday.
juz yesterday.
but i'm not right now.
this kinda feeling sucks.
:/
i never thought tht i would say this, but.
i miss the time when we worked tgt, have supper after work,
exchange each other's problem, and everything.
i feel this way but don't you?
hmm.

i'm tired.
tired of life.
& i'm like so hungry now ):
retarded day at school seriously. lol.
juz couldn't concentrate and i don't know why.
and i dragged myself to go for p. of management.
at least this week i didn't missed any lessons(:
but i'm like late everyday. zz
after sch go find yi kai again :D
like crazy only. horrrrrrrrrr!

so happy cuz there's no sch tmr!
will be meeting ea(:
and i really hope i don't have to worry anymre.
please please. take good care of yourself k.
i long for you.

late for sch again.
fall aasleep during micro econs zz
i seriously think that me and kirin's crazy abt cottton on. LOL.
spending time there on lunch breaks and after sch(:
bought two pair of flatz and she bought hers too(:
oh well thn i went back for micro econs.
went je after sch to meet meihui(:
i was in a realllly bad mood. not kidding.
but after something. k, mood changed :P
went to buy her top tgt with her(:
and she accompanied me to look for someone tgt.
damn ke ai(: hee.
my heart actually melted....................................................

SCH's fun today.
but kirin left durng stats class :(
at least i managed t stay thruout the whole day.
went tjp to find somebody. :P
always felt so good when i'm there.
eh dontknow why. dont even ask.cuz ive gt no answer t that :D
thn waited for ea to end work t do hair tgt. (:
sat there for like an hour t wait for her hair to be done.
played djmaxxxxxxx.
i can't help it but thought about it again.
at least it kept the smile on my face for the day. (:

i'm sorry to let you guys worry.
and sorry bro. :( :(
i should hve known better of what i should do. :/
sorry for being sucha disappointment.

i don't know what makes me want to activate my blog again.
anw, thats not the main point.
had a heart to heart talk with ea ytd.
felt so good. (:
kinda troubled about something recently.
i feel tht i'm kind of drifting apart from you.
not as close as we used to be.
when we alrdy promised on being good friends for life.
i don't know if i'm thinking too much or you feel the same way too.
but i don't feel good about this.
i don't give two hoots about what we used to be it's what about us now that matters...................